21st November in my life

Its been awhile, so many things happen recently.

The love one came back, and he went off again. 

So fast 5month has over, but the night mare started. 

He is going to Singapore for his future, so the coming monday,

which is tomorrow, he is going to start his first day.

I did not know what should i say.

Very happy that he able to find the job, but 

very sad to being separate with him for 1 year. 

It suppose to be the time where couple have their sweet time,

enjoying their previous moment. But im alone. 

I felt very lonely sometime. It seems that im very happy

most of the time. But inside, nobody know. 

I wish the time pass faster until the month of May for

me to UK. 

Besides, is the month of november, is my birthday.

I purposely lock my birthday date at facebook to see 

who do remember my birthday. I am very glad that most of my friend 

remember it! Im glad to have you all. 

So the first celebration was with my classmate. The very first time, 

all of us hang out until morning. From 6.00pm until the next morning 8.00am. 

It was a very special memories, i will always remember. 

I suppose this is the last time we hang out till the morning in KL? 

Looking forward for our next memories before we graduate. 

Seriously appreciate you all.

So it comes to the second celebration with my deariest VIPs

I would like to thanks everyone of you all because i know 

we are from different place, south, east, west bla bla bla.

Thanks for the corporation to make this happen. 

I know you all piss off and argue for my birthday. 

Felt sorry but thank you also for all of the effort and surprise.

Its been awhile to see all of you all and enjoy this funny and crazy moment 

with you all. PS: do not celebrate at FRIDAY because it is freaking crazy.

I felt so happy but shy at the same time!

Last with my bitches, bring me to Bangsar Village for Plan B. 

Saids is brunch but we do it on 3.15. LOL high tea with brunch food?

We order to the max. Ended up we full up to the tank!

Nice meal and so we went to Baskin Robbin, at first wanted to go for 

Dip n Dip. But it was too crowded =( Nevermind, next time!

Enjoy the moment with you. Its been awhile for us to catch up too 

because we always met last time, now i think twice a month already 

is good for us. Thanks for the present that i kept mentioned!

haha. Love it so much. I wish we keep meeting weekly or twice a month okay? 

And with my family, although mother is flying off the work, 

but thanks for the sweet sweet cake. 

At least we have the cut cake session together before mommy fly to work.

So followed by Sam and the gang, i know we have lost contact for sometimes.

But thanks for the effort calling each of the friend.

At least to have a catch up and sing k session.
Enjoy your life in New-Zealand. 

Lastly on my actual birthday, with the one and only one.

I received the present 2 weeks before. Thanks for all of the present.

I like it so much and thanks for the meal and nice day.

Love you so much. 

Thanks for all of my friends for the present and celebration. 

You guys make my 21st birthday with the wonderful foot stop. 

自问21年来，自己有什么遗憾。顿时想不出。

自己去外面住也住过了，自己独立去做工，自己赚钱。

成绩也算自己满意的，朋友都很好，暂时没有背叛，没有出卖。

家人健康，感情稳定，找到对的方向，未来还算在预算当中。

I will continue to run for my life and make my life as colourful as i can.

No one will affect my future life.

No matter how hard, how tough it is.

I will bear with it, until i achieve what i want !

为什么?

最近都很少update部落了...天天都在朋友家做功课, 做功课, 做功课
刚刚从台湾回来后, 到今天, 都没有什么出门逛逛. 也从台湾回来后, 都没有什么做工了.
一回来的那天, 不停不停得一直send profile. 希望快点有好消息. 可是一直都没有人打电话给我.
有, 都是叫我去interview, 我很累, 很失望, 本身自己都没有什么喜欢去面试了.因为懒惰和没有信心.一起的每次每次都没有什么中. 以前的我还是去.
结果有3次一次中而已. 知道人家不选我的时候, 真的很失望, 很伤心, 没有信心了.
总是觉得自己真的不够好看, 甚至有时候会怀疑倒地自己适不适合做freelance model.
真的很伤心, 最近去也去了几个面试, 特地带化装包去学校. 在班上, 全部人看着你的状况下-化装!
还有一次, 考试时候, 我特地做后面, 赶快把试卷做完, 然后就开始化装.
然后再赶去塔公车去面试, 结果-? (sorry dear, the client chosen another girl, anyway, thanks for coming ya)
那种心情, 真的是难受! 或许, 一直以来, 都是我自己过去有信心? 过分相信自己的能力? 太高攀自己了. 造成现在的我.
近期的pc fair看到很多认识的朋友都在做工, 而且她们做的, 我都有send profile去, 但是!
总是不中.

为什么?????
难道她们真的比我好看吗? 难道我真的那么糟糕吗???!!!
为什么都不是我???!!! 为什么我中的工期钱都很少???!!!
为什么? 难道我真的不适合做这分工??
很心痛, 有人知道吗?
一直以来的信心, 真的就被打败了!!!!!!!

我每天都祈祷, 我能象她们将, 工作天天来, 工钱高高!!
为什么她们可以, 我不可以???
为什么??? 我还是不相信我是属于不要看的那一类!!

有谁能了解我的心情?
希望, 十二月是个丰收月. 让我在去英国之前, 找到我要找到的钱

生活

虽然没有什么头绪想要写些什么, 但是就是很想更新我的部落格.
最近开学了, 有几位同学都没有继续读. 但是继续读的多过没有继续的.
我们PR从10班变成5班, 所以我们参进了B2的朋友, 多人了
不知道为什么, 有些不习惯, 有一些生疏的面孔, 虽然上lecture是常常见啦! 哈哈
不知道为什么就是不喜欢问问题了, 以前在diploma时常常问问题
就连老师都说: 啊yan! 啊yan以前很喜欢问问题的哦, 现在做么酱diam?

得到时间表后, 真的很不开心, 可是星期五的课还算不错, 到12点吧了.
其它的都有个很长的break, 时间就那么浪费, 钱也是.
可是暂时两个星期的break都过的不错,
昨天才和同学去打羽毛球, 很累, 流很多汗, 但是很开心, 做运动是很好的.
希望每次的break time都能一起去做运动还是做些什么的, 不要回家睡觉啦.

说到我的老板呢, 之从9/15号见了老板后, 到现在, 如果不是因为要做工的话, 我想我们就不会见面到今天.
你不想念我么?! 一两个礼拜才想见我一次? 我讨厌你! =(

之从放假那段时期常去做工后, 很多offer, 但是因为读书而不能去做.
谁不爱钱? 看着那2/3百酱, 慢慢得的飞走. 几心痛啊!
还有一些因为早前答应了另外份工而不能做工钱比较高的工, 也是很心痛啊!
每次告诉自己, 没关系, 我是个学生, 不是freelancer! 不要因为眼前的快前, 忽略了我的学业.
而且我该把时间留给家人. 星期六日就是我常做工的时候, 也是我爸爸妈妈唯有的假期. 真矛盾下.