Thursday, December 26, 2013

Love is unpredictable

Recently, i saw alot of of my friend get engaged, broke up with boyfriend, get married.

It was somehow very very surprise for me, during my age of 18. My cousin's cousin get married because of pregnant. Sign, should i said that's too early? Or am not that open?
Maybe is just me myself, i think that getting marry in 18-20 is still too young for me.
While i am still enjoying my life with no worry with no pressure to take, no burden to carry.
I got to tie myself with another 1 forever? Hmmm...

Some of my friend broke up. The relationship was not like 1 year or 1 year plus.
Is like 4 years minimum. It was very shocking!
In my thought, i always wanted to find a person that i could walk through until the end of my life.
I thought the relationship will be maintain after 2 years and he might be the one that i can hold forever.
But, in the reality, it is not what i thought.
The longer the relationship go, the higher the risk of broke up.

Many of my friends, those who i thought, or not just me. That everyone thought that they will be getting married very soon. Or fore sure they will marry in future.
However, they are the one who will not marry or be together at last.

Throughout the experiences or the witnesses that i have gone through.
This broke up case that keeps happening around me, makes me questions myself.
Am i going on the right way? I am the person that wish to have everything plan and wish it happen as what i plan.
If it never goes what i thought, better for it not to start.

Every time we talk about future. It really seems that we have a clue about our future.
A lot of confident between us and i believe that our relationship will last forever.
However, problem that we could not solve, we even plan about break up in future.
He seems like very calm and easily accept the fact of breaking up. I felt so heart broken and i really wish to stop this relationship immediately because of his answer.
If you are not holding this believe why am i want to start?

The one who be with you for 4 years 5 years or plus will never be your husband.
The one who be with you for 3 months 4 months will the right choice.
That's why people always said :在错的时候,遇上对的人,在对的时候,遇上错的人。
The one you love the most will never be your forever partner.
The one who be you meet for 3/4 months who best SUIT you are not the one who you love the most.
When you find someone who you think is really suit, regardless time, you both will wish to get marry immediately.
This is life. I should always apply this theory around. Lol

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

November and December

就在11的时候,她结婚了。我的好姐妹,终于找到她爱的人和他共度一生!
话说,我是第一次做姐妹,虽然没有经验,但是还算扛的起气氛。
那3天2夜,真的很累,但是很开心,我们一起起身,一起等冲凉,一起出门,吃饭,睡觉之前,一起聊天。很久没有这样做了,3年前,就是这样,但是现在,我们也没有变。
现在希望能看着她宝宝快高长大,干妈一定买很多衣服给你穿的,让你做个fashion baby!

读书就告一段落了!读了3年,下个semester就开始不用去学校了。该死的thesis真是累人,每天都要改改改!每个星期折磨我一次,每个星期要特地去学校,见那位不想见的老师5分钟不到,他真的是很大牌!
下个semester,就只剩thesis,所以没有上课了。但是还是要每个星期回学校见老师。不用紧啦,好过上课。
这学期很累,很无奈。
那科叫public relations & advertising and marketing.最无奈的一科,有位很奇怪的老师。
明明说好上个学期过后就没有event了。只有一个随便的launching.
因为我们亲爱的老师的一句话:你们不觉得单单launching,media不会来的吗?
结果,就突然被逼着要搞event,加上我们手上的thesis.真的是想杀死她!
她要就要,不要假假来问我们拉!明明都有想法了,真是奇怪!
也就因为这个event,让我看清一些东西,人物。原来友情是那么脆弱的东西。
还是他们根本没有把我们当朋友?很'yihei' 哦。。。
过了这个event,我们就变了,一切都变得很虚伪。想到就觉得可笑,可怜。
怎么能那么伟大?佩服。
可能我太过在乎了?我真的有点失望,为什么你们会变成这样?
让我有点不知道要怎么对待你们。2月的旅行,我要用什么心情去?
我觉得我自己很虚伪!LOL...
希望2月的旅行能让我变回以前那样吧。不然3个月一起生活的日子要怎么熬过呢?

说到3个月生活,也就是去英国的生活。我本人很期待!辛苦做工了4年,都是为了那天!
这四年来,每次的诱惑,每次要买不必要的东西是,我都会一一拒绝。但是有时候,还是花了。哈哈。我答应自己,到了那边,一定会花完自己那么辛苦赚的钱。我不会不舍得!我会很很很舍得!
还有,我想说。那些人经常说,你们有钱人当然可以去那边花完那些钱,我们这些穷人只是想要完成读书拿证书回来。千万不要这么说!
不需要在人与人之间装可怜,因为是你自己让自己看起来很可怜。
对不起,我是不会可怜你的。
因为钱,是努力赚回来的。
你没有钱,就不要没有买有的没有的,花不应该的地方,
每天去做工,而不是每天去吃喝玩乐。好笑吗?
你一点都不可怜!
现在我最害怕的是,去到那边,会不会因为住在一起而吵架。希望不会。

今天是Christmas eve, 男朋友去星加坡作工。今年的圣诞,跨年,都没有你了。
又没有朋友一起度过,顿时觉得还蛮可怜的。
但是无所谓啦,真正可怜的人,是自己一个人,在远方,没有朋友没有家人在身边的人。
我应该感到自足,但唯一遗憾是,身边的朋友都很忙,而你也在那么远。

将快,又一年了,我又捞一岁了!还有6天我就踏入22了。
照常的年尾,钱永远不够。因为要考试,没有做工,而且很多朋友生日。
一个月同时3个一起来,不伤都假。还有那么多庆祝,真的很伤啊。
我不是没有钱,对不起我时常把没有钱挂在嘴边,其实我是已经花超过自己预算了。
所以不想解释那么多,就说没有钱咯。
这个学期,照常的年尾,当大家都在准备过年,过圣诞,TARUCIAN都在准备考试。
可是幸好这一学期,我们还有机会过圣诞与跨年。但是偏偏我又选择不庆祝。真是矛盾!哈哈
有3科考试,其中一科,我遇见了一位好老师。
他很体谅,assignment,exam,全部都直接给我们答案。
所以那张纸,没有问题! 还有两张,慢慢看吧。时间还很多!

够了啦,因为太久没有写,所以一次过写那么多,记下我的生活,以后可以看下我有几幼稚。
希望22岁的我能变成熟,变理智,不要那么骄傲,自以为是,为英国赚大钱,那好成绩!
加油!